 Where is it? My original self is hiding in layers of protection. It can get confusing. Which one AM I? To have a vision of the ideal is awesome; But it is also important to REALIZE - this is an IDEAL; we will reach it step by step. We must stand on the ground, making plans to fly to heaven. Realistic plans. Do you remember how AWFUL it was for Neo to wake up in that crazy submarine thing? To realize his body was being used?  as a battery? how degrading. And yet, the vampires walk among us. Are we self generating our energy? Do we just kind of suck up ambient energy around us? it is tough to want to take that red pill  LET'S HUNT RABBITS! there are some ideas that will not perish, no matter what political, historical, personal, familial horror we endure - 
these KEEP COMMING BACK! "the survivor remains fully aware of her ordinariness, her weaknesses, and her limitations, as well as her connection and indebtedness to to others. This awareness provides a balance, even as she rejoices in her strength." She is able to trust appropriately, she feels autonomous yet remains connected to others as well. She can maintain her own point of view and boundaries while respecting those of others. She is in the process of creating a new identity - constantly! Mutual friendships are not based on performance, image, or the maintenance of a false self. She is ready for intimacy - profound sharing of her true, original self - without fear. In the sharing, we become fully human. How important to protect our love! new research VINDICATED abstinence education, by the way! The BEST way....pure love. But Guess what? you can become pure NOW- there even is a thing called SECONDARY VIRGINITY! it is awesome. God has made our mind our ultimate sanctuary; from this deep well, we can pull up our original self, Innocence can be regained http://archpedi.ama-assn.org/cgi/content/short/164/2/152?home Simply living OUR lives is difficult; trying to reach another - ESPECIALLY from the other gender-planet is really like trying to reach aliens in space! We can prepare for it; and while in the MIDST of relationships, we can take a hiatus. And begin again. Amazing. weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. Psalm 30:5 | 
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When oriental men dance Salsa, you know the Kingdom will come soon! Dancing to make a peaceful world! my friend had the picture of my husband dancing! we had fun, sweat ....a work out! 
and of course, food and talk. 
